I wanted to pass on a message of ‘forgive those who have done wrong to you,’ and of ‘we have all sinned, in small and large degrees, so do not condemn someone future for their past doings’.

Seeing comments such as “a man capable of rape cannot be loved,” kinda make feel as if I’ve failed in passing that message on.

I guess I have to realize you are looking at this from the movies point of view.

I have had to live with memories of …. my whole life and my first thought is that I shudder at the thought that it defined me and/or love.

But when I get into situations I dont understand or are extremely difficult I have always asked God, why is this happening? Why did you give this to me? What lesson am I, or do you, want me to learn here?

Such a horrid repeated events in my young life.. was a lesson?

I go back and re read what you have written many times…and it dawns on me after reading…”By being raped, you had experienced the worst thing imaginable to you, and survived. What else would could you fear afterward?”
And I look at my life in perspective it has been a very hard life and I think to “what else could you fear afterward?” and maybe, Im thinking now, if I had this perspective it certainly would have made the rest of my life easier to take, sort of…

…that is all.

I’m really stirred by these stories.

What I was aiming for.