Archive for 2021

you don’t…

that’s the answer
to most of our questions.

hunny, do i how to
come down if i’m always high
in heels, pills, sex, and booze?
you don’t sweetie.

sweetie, do i love you
if every time i meet a woman
like that (you know, like that)
i have you on my arms?
you don’t hunny.

and on, and on
we tear each other down
it’s our love language

it keeps us together
it keeps us undone

poppa taught me how to fight and i’m daddy’s girl
so i ain’t no bitch, except that bitch

and any trick that steps to me ’bout her man
better watch her knees, before i break ’em

and i’ll try but i won’t, can’t stop myself
from really hurtin’ her by letting her know that
me and her man fucked again last night
laughed again last night, ’bout how curvy she ain’t
’bout how ugly she is

without makeup
as i wear makeup

as i’ve worn makeup
to mask these eyes pops gave me
as he was toughening me up

tough like the black-and-blue leather belt
around my girl’s man’s neck
after he came over, to cum over me
’cause he thought we were gonna
do something or something
for free?!

so he had to get jumped

like how these feelings jump me
when my guard’s down and shit
and they ask, “do you want to be loved?”

by whom nigga?! ’cause men ain’t shit
but a tongue, a dick, and a trick
who thinks she knows her man better than i do

and my man’s friends ain’t shit too
’cause hot girl shit means knowing
every man in my DMs wanna do me like he do
and my man ain’t the hottest in the crew

and you know it’s fuck what you do
it’s where you’re from
and i’m from a house momma couldn’t stand any longer
so she left me alone

and you know it’s fuck who you screw
so where’re your arms
give ’em here, empty your pockets
of more than condoms you’ll never use

and you know it’s watch your p’s and q’s
or these feelings will jump you, like i do
when i find out you’re dumb enough to love me
more than i do

more than they do, your taller friends

and i’ll try but i won’t, can’t stop myself
from really hurtin’ you by letting you know that
me and your friends fucked again last night
laughed again last night, ’bout how ugly you are
’bout how far back your hairline starts

’cause if i don’t deserve to be loved, why do you
get to feel comfortable in your skin, in your man’s walk
that poppa taught me how to emulate just for fun

and poppa made me walk with a lean more than once
and i used to cry, but i don’t anymore ’cause i ain’t no bitch
’cause i ain’t his bitch

but these feelings keep jumping me
every time i put the knife i used to kill him down

the first lesson on appearance

don’t talk too much
don’t smile too often

don’t express your inner universe
with your eyes

and don’t laugh with joy
while complimenting everyone

or the average woman will assume
you’re gay, but closeted

and they’ll friend-zone you
with the kind intention of being
that one friend
that you confide in

and since you mostly can’t
won’t, change a woman’s mind
once she’s made it up

it’s best to avoid them
being wrong about you
and your sexuality

in the first place

but, all of that
all of this is a lot

easier as a man
if you don’t care about
what women think of you

this isn’t a movie

just ask any woman
who’s learnt not to care
about what any man thinks
of her

the second lesson on courtship

men ain’t shit, so

easy women have been hurt and broken
hearted by a couple of men

so they’ll let you in
but they’ll never let you in
because they can’t anymore

average women demand
the fantastic praises of
i love yous

because that’s what
the books they read and
the movies they watch demand
of their self-love

but fantasy is fiction and
fiction is a lie, and you’re too busy
truthfully focusing on you

for a truthful courtship

so, since you’re trying not to lie
it’s best that you avoid the latter
the average woman

which is easier said than done

just focus on easy women
who don’t care about the chase

even if they’re far in-between
even if their hearts are a bit colder
than yours
even if their smiles never reach their eyes

and if you find an average woman
who’s not bitter
and who’s not looking for love

hold on to her
but not too tightly

because you don’t have time
for anything but self-love

and you don’t want your actions
to say that you have more of that
to give than you do

since a false promise is still a lie

the third lesson on sex

don’t believe in romance fantasies
like Bridgerton
women hit on men more
when they’re in a relationship

men ain’t shit, they’re easy
and it’s easier to have sex with women
if you’re in a relationship

and willing to lie
than if you’re single and truthful

yes, a lot of people are single
and truthful
but even more are in relationships

and like facing unemployment

getting out of a relationship
when we don’t have another one
set up to catch us scares us

so more than just some of us
in dead relationships cheat
and those who cheat cheat
with someone else who’s
in a relationship

because of the certainty of it

everyone having something to lose
if the truth comes out
eases the anxiety in air

and it’s a lot easier to have sex
if there’s a lie in the air

so if you’ve chosen the unnecessary burden
of not having lies as your wingman
then be prepared to go without sex

luckily though, you’re focusing on you

and luckily again, trusting a new man
another man, is hard for women

so a lot of the women you’ve been with
will answer those midnight texts

even if you’ve hurt them

by letting them know that
you don’t have time for love
and all that it entails